The latest.........

Well its been a while. Things where going very well, but they have flopped a little. God news is ive lost a bit of weight, I was 97-98kg now im down at 94.4kg last time I weighed in! That lose was in just two weeks; i've started jogging 5 days a week which is definately key and it makes you automatically think about what you've been eating cos if you put shit in the tank, it doesnt burn well and thus you have an awful run! Its Diesel for me baby none of that sunflower oil rubbish!
Now for some less good news. Im stil in a dead end job which I hate. I really do I think about how much I hate it every hour let alone every day! When i'm there I swear time stops! I try and get around this by being nice, but the place is just full of shits. Literally from our "customers" to a small majority of the staff! I get one with most of the staff and even some of the customers well. When hunting for another job however I tried one in the same place I am currently employied and apparently i'm not even good enough for that! I'm not exaggerating when I say I one handed monkey could do that job, let alone any other job at that place! Also I tried to apply for the graduate scheme there, but no not good enough 2.1 degree my arse! That literally the difference between 60% I my degree (I achieved) and 65% I mean what the hell, its literally the biggest pile of B.S. ive ever heard of!
Other less good news is that im forming new hatrid for people based on who they know, and who they like/ get on better with than I currently do! I mean I got completely cocked blocked by a fool! I'm going to make sure he regrets this, whatever happen. Regular readers will know that ive had previous problems in the past! I let that one kinda go and looking back it was a good thing; maybe this will be. I've not lost this battle though and will continue to soldier on. Till the death if need be. I dont fear death people when you've been as close to it as I have you learn two things A. Its not so bad and B. You never want to go near it again and also that you must try and strive to be the best you possible so that you make the most of your time here! I'm back reading a lot of philosophical theory and "self-help" stuff. I admit I dont need help, im doing fine but I like to try and improve and get better with life in general and having more knowledge of my feelings and how to manage them and influence others effectively can only help this.

Its a run-away train and i'm in the front carrage trying to control the crazy; crazy thing!

Mr. Spark.