New year, new start? NEW GOALS HELL YEEEAH!

Hang on I better check my old goals, you know last years........

'Aim one: 13 and a half stone by the end of the year (189 pounds and 85.7289579kg thanks google)!

Aim two: Build more muscle- ok I know this isnt one I can neccessarily know when ive hit!

Aim three: Move out by xmas 2010

Aim four: Have a job by November 2010

Aim five: (and the biggie) Cut drink out to two days a week (thursday and saturday so i can be social)

Aim six: A salad a day I mean proper beefy nice salad (that should be easy I love salad)!

Aim seven: Cut out all 'junk food' apart from Sunday nights so I dont go on binges like used to'!

(see: http://thesubmittersmart.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2009-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&updated-max=2010-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&max-results=31 (the longest URL EVER right!?))


Right sooooo goal one. The aim was 85.72kg and right now I weigh in at 93.9 fully clothed and full of food. So id say more like 92kg? Ive lost 7kg in a year. Not much, but im well on my way. No longer classed as overweight which is nice! I'm trying to eat more fruit and veggies and basically live a healthier life style. But overall since target not hit for goal. FAIL.

Goal Two: I joined the gym and went however most of the time the aim was to loose weight not gain muscle so I lost weight (I dont think it was muscle, if I lost any muscle it would have left me a skeleton on my arms! I didnt however stay disciplined with the gym and went on and off for all of 8 months. Overall NEUTRAL.

Goal Three: Not happened, still with my family. Nothing more needs to be said here. FAIL.

Goal four: I have a job. Its just not where I want to be (in the I.T. industry. I've applied for at least fifty jobs. Had a few interviews. I have an interview soon with a bank (ok not I.T. but a BANK is good for the CV) so im hoping that will go well!

Goal five: YEEEES goal achieved (although on different days)! Basically due to work and other people workingg I rarely drink during the week now anyway and LESS on weekends. So overall if anything i'm above the target. ACHIEVED.

Goal six: okay, so not a salad a day. However my life overall has become much healthier food wise. Christmas is here though; lets not tempt fate too much!

Aim Seven: I do eat healthier, still working on this one though NEUTRAL.

OVERALL (the scores are in! Are you excited? I AM):

2 FAIL 3 NEUTRAL 3 ACHIEVED!

So this year I think I should re-use the same resolutions with the aims of making those neutrals ACHIEVED and the fails NEUTRALS AT LEAST! So.......

Aim one: 13 and a half stone by the end of the year (189 pounds and 85.7289579kg thanks google)!

Aim two: Build more muscle- ok I know this isnt one I can neccessarily know when ive hit!

Aim three: Move out by summer 2011 - moved the goal posts back a bit! But not for a year, I need some pressure. However I dont want to rush too much, into stuff im not comfortable with

Aim Four: Get a better, nice job. Which I enjoy doing and feel rewarded for!

So thats this years targets and they can be achieved. The weight lose one is just further work, more excercise and eating healthy and less bad stuff! Pretty simple, but disciplined. Build more muscle. Well when I join the gym and loose some weight ill build muscle then. It might increase my weight but itll make me look better. Moving out relies on my final one of getting a good full time job. Which takes interview skill. Something i'm rapidly having to learn! This one is by far the hardest. The economic climate is crap! A company taking a risk on you is hard enough, but then you need to proove it in interview and they as everyone knows aren't easy. I'm preparing better and better each time though!

Its a matter of time. Up-dates on goals and other things coming soon (very soon).

Chris.

"twenty-three jobs today. More jobs then you could shake a cat at"!

Yes I did really say the above, to my sister; about errrm twenty seconds ago? Which was when I decided to check-in and write a blog. Why? Why not? This one after all isn't going to be the whiney jargon I decided to serve up in a masterfull dinner of how shit my life has the potiential to be. I was tired yesterday and this definately took its toll and things got to me. My blog is the old do something very damaging. I limit the damage by typing it all in here, the ultimate forum that few people read (and even less do who you know; actually know me).
So what happened today? Well actually quite a bit, you know considering I do a job that doesnt really impact anyone. I was on trollies and it was very slippy. So slippy the boss even came out and told me not to expect the cars to stop. As if it would some how be my fault if I was to be hit by one! Its Christmas you know a time for friendliness and giving and happiness and generousity. Yeah right!? I've seen more generousity in one of the videos of Hitlers concentration camps! People are vicous and very self centred; I am including myself in that sweeping statement. Even now as I type this i'm looking for a job and I wont care if I get it what happened to the many people who applied but failed. However in the more likely event I dont get it suddenly everyone else becomes important because they hurt me and I dont like that. People cant help the egotistic life they all lead. All that matters when the shit hits the fan is themselves. Think you dont apply? Take a closer look! In the best of cases you might care about your friend (note: friend not friends) or family but after that all that matter is number one. Anyway back on topic. Work is hard, Christmas turns people to heartless wankers and job hunting is an incredible hardship. Made worse by rubbish internet and distraction (grrrr damn you blog).

And on that bombshell.

Chris.

Nice weekend; but........

Hello,

I dont know whats going on.....its tiredness I guess? Its been a great weekend, ive spent too much money and partied waaaay too hard, but now I just feel like dispair. I cant stop thinking and its driving me insane. I'm obsessing over a girl, who i'm doing well with, but this seems like bad obsession; like a panic over her, loosing, lose, rejection? I dont know. I could rant on and on all day (all blog) about this......ok I will, for a while. Readers if you get the feeling this is the scribblings of a persons current thoughts; you are correct! Its not just this girl i'm worrying (is that the right word, I mean, im not worried, its not worry. Panicing? errrm obsessing yes. Obsessing) about its work, getting a new job, progressing with life, acceptence by friends, do I trust them, do they trust me? Do they tell me this, that; the other? Man. I sound crazy; i mean reading this back im thinking "dude your head is fried"! It is, its hurting, its tiredness I know that; so i'm scrolling down my thoughts here; in this public blog any old joe could read! Not wise. Geeeeese I know, but I have to tell someone (something?) about this, that, them? Whatever it is i'm thinking! I need reasons, I need action, I need progression. Its the girls fault. No. its my own making, this situation. My fault. After all my feelings, perceptions, actions. Lack of actions all my fault. I can blame others......and no doubt for the little things I will. At the end of the day I need to do something. i was thinking on the girl front just be friendly, be a friend. But she has many male friends who all like her and want something, but nothing happens! I cant be a drone like them (no offence if your reading this fellas, I am after all pretty mental(see above)). If I ask her though to go somewhere and she says nein, it would hurt alot, I guess its cos my dream would be destroyied. What ive worked for gone......but friends, friends can fall in love right? Anyway enough about that problem (its not a problem, I love it really, maybe, do I? lets not go there).
On the job front, ive had a few more interviews and offers of interviews since my last blog. Jobs come and go, but nothing seems to be really catching on and employing me. I'm hoping 2011 will be a big year of progression for me on that front. I cant really deal with living here much longer. I mean, I love my parent but at the same time they get on my nerves, I need my own space. My own people. I'm still at Sainsburys and I enjoy it. I never thought id write (type) that but I am, its pretty good for what I do, nice people everywhere.

Thats the blog for now.

See you soon readers.

Chris.

Another blog, also known as another training session for my typing!

Todays the day! No really today im going to do something awesome with my life! Starting with.....you guessed it! How I Met Your Mother it seems goood today, I dont know why! But it has snowed! I got woken up early by the shine off the snow! So that was bad, but I have work later (bad) but that has up's. The walk to work (up) the hotties (up) a nice short shift (up) and Sunday off (OBER UP)! In other news, well heck there isnt much! But hay! The problem with today is that work is positioned badly until 10pm so I need to sleep in so that I can have enough energy for work, which means the gap between sleep and work gets shorter and shorter! Resulting in doing a whole load of nothing whilst I literally wait for work! So whats real good about today? Well.....nothing! Its a Saturday without an even wow im out tomight, or a wow after work I can watch the football. Newcastle aren't playing! This is quite possibly the dullest saturday ever! But the snow yay!

Tomorrow.....more of the same! Bet you cant wait! I may do something good today though, I cant publically announce what my plans are though, its all secret! Like good secret not i'm going to kill someone secret, thats not good by the way!

Chris.

Its time for A mother f*cking chang!

Hi all!
How my life? Weeeeell! Since university; as you may know, ive been after a job? So hows that going? Well I recon i've applied for at least 100 jobs! So far i've had three interviews! the latest of which was today! It was was seven trent water!!!! It was good, scary shit but good! It went ok except some listening test which was very strange, very strange indeed! I got very stressed out before hand, but now its done, its done! I find out tomorrow if I passed the pre-screening! Then I have an interview! The first of two! Alot of testing my nerves? I think so, but i'll get through! The rewards are good; a new job, that I enojoy! It cant be bad and 16K would be a nice bonus on top. Beats Sainsburys with the constant promise of promotion and expansion bullshit!
Outside of work the drumming still exsists! I still love it, its by far the most relaxing thing I ever do! I'm also still going running! so i'm getting healthier; although we all treat ourselves sometimes right! The social life is also going well, i'm enjoying going out and partying at the moment and if i meet people thats a bonus. I enjoy my friends company alot! However money is an issue right now, with a simple solution obtaining more! Hence why my life is slowly but surely being run by Sainsburys! Its a bummer, but you've just got to take the time you have to yourself and treasure it! However big or small that length of time is. I still hate the Harry Potter franchise. The kid cant even act in the movie; and even my so called fan friends admit the books are shocking! Whats this shit all about? Its beyond me!

I've got an admission to make. I'm going to be doing more blogs these next few days to get my typing up to scratch! So I can type fast at interviews that require that sort of stuff!

Yours Sincerely ;-)

Chris.

The latest.........

Well its been a while. Things where going very well, but they have flopped a little. God news is ive lost a bit of weight, I was 97-98kg now im down at 94.4kg last time I weighed in! That lose was in just two weeks; i've started jogging 5 days a week which is definately key and it makes you automatically think about what you've been eating cos if you put shit in the tank, it doesnt burn well and thus you have an awful run! Its Diesel for me baby none of that sunflower oil rubbish!
Now for some less good news. Im stil in a dead end job which I hate. I really do I think about how much I hate it every hour let alone every day! When i'm there I swear time stops! I try and get around this by being nice, but the place is just full of shits. Literally from our "customers" to a small majority of the staff! I get one with most of the staff and even some of the customers well. When hunting for another job however I tried one in the same place I am currently employied and apparently i'm not even good enough for that! I'm not exaggerating when I say I one handed monkey could do that job, let alone any other job at that place! Also I tried to apply for the graduate scheme there, but no not good enough 2.1 degree my arse! That literally the difference between 60% I my degree (I achieved) and 65% I mean what the hell, its literally the biggest pile of B.S. ive ever heard of!
Other less good news is that im forming new hatrid for people based on who they know, and who they like/ get on better with than I currently do! I mean I got completely cocked blocked by a fool! I'm going to make sure he regrets this, whatever happen. Regular readers will know that ive had previous problems in the past! I let that one kinda go and looking back it was a good thing; maybe this will be. I've not lost this battle though and will continue to soldier on. Till the death if need be. I dont fear death people when you've been as close to it as I have you learn two things A. Its not so bad and B. You never want to go near it again and also that you must try and strive to be the best you possible so that you make the most of your time here! I'm back reading a lot of philosophical theory and "self-help" stuff. I admit I dont need help, im doing fine but I like to try and improve and get better with life in general and having more knowledge of my feelings and how to manage them and influence others effectively can only help this.

Its a run-away train and i'm in the front carrage trying to control the crazy; crazy thing!

Mr. Spark.

one "project" gone but so many more to focus on and so much to do!

wow! Well previously whats happened, or at least my assumptions of whats happened would get me down. Not in this instance. one of my "projects" appears to have no standards and thus has been disguarded. Harsh? No its really not, if your not doing me any good chances are i'm really not helping you and thus its best for the both of us if I distance or cut myself out of your life. Also the use of the term projects isnt to dehumanize anyone its more for confidiential reasons and also to stop me focusing on just one person or persons in my life that way everyone gets some of the goodness I have to give; whilst those who require it will get the darkness. However not quick to judge i'm going to make sure I get all the facts before plotting there inevitable downfall. Yes Smarties turned into a bitch. I'm going to attack from all angles affected every aspect of there lives like a fucking virus eating them from all angles! Harsh again? No not really! i'm merely getting rid of those who hurt me most effectively whilst making sure others are effected as little as possible! I'm never uncivil to anybody I could literally hate your guts (yes you, the reader) but im never going to smack you (in daylight) and im never going to fly off the pan (in front of you) that gives you the power, and the energies. I dont want you having either. I'm a big believer in energy, good and bad and then seperately to both evil. Evil can be used for both good and bad in my opinion kind of like a in the long term that energy was good because although it did 7 bad things the one good thing it did that was good was very good! I dont think im selffish either. I preserve myself, I actively try and stride in everything I do, fuck me over, ill hate you for a while not because I wanted something you have or to fufill myself but because you hurt my already serverely damaged soul and that takes time to heal you fucker! As per usaul lucky readers I have a plan.......

- assumptions are deadly for everything this project assumes I will do my best to make sure its incorrect.

- for everything they learn about me, ill make sure if its good for my purposes its enhanced. Whilst bad things will be destroyied (and those who have planted it will pay).

- I will not worry or wither or feel bad about any of my actions or non-actions with this project since its just a long experiment. A battle I may have lost, but nothing cannot be learnt from.

- I will study this project daily to enhance all of my resources into refining or destroying it (or them?) depending on how bad the situation gets.

Now although making plans on a blog is clearly not too normal, I really dont care. Anyone who trully knows me knows i'm a civil, nice guy. I wont hurt or aim to unless severely provoked or stabbed in the back! Thats the worse thing for me. You could be honest, honesty is nice.

Chris.

long time reader; first time writer.....

Hey all!

Its been a long time; why? I'm not too sure! Anyway most of my posts are crazy goal based aims that normally never get achieved! Well this one is an exception to that marvelous rule! The theme today is diets! Im currently 94.8kg hello fatty! I feel fat and my diet is bad (too much shite and way too much alocohol)! So im changing this, I will drink but only when I go out no more casual drinking in the home every night! I'm going to gym five days a week (monday to friday whenever I can fit it in). Finally im going to cut out all junk food and eat only the best food I can get my hands on! If im still feeling shit in like 4 weeks im going to the doctors! I should mention here that ive currently got man flu some what bad and my stomachs become all fucked up from various abuses! In other news im starting drumming again! I'm getting a book tomorrow from the library that I hope will help me out no end! I may even give my drum teacher a call! On the job front im still selling my soul to the devil that is Sainsburys! It sucks big time, I want out and ill do anything to get out! Say does anyone female need a rent boy? Yes? call me! On a serious note I hate it there, its too dull which means I think too much and when I think too much I over think and things tend to turn sour! Dont think do, thats a good saying and something im now living by! If only I didnt have work at half twelve i'd be out now in town buying some new clothes; because I can. I'm rich due to the devil (mentioned earlier (that'll teach you to read my blogs half way through for the point, as if there was one))! Have you heard i've graduated sir/madamme? Yes I got a 2.2 in Business Information Technology! What does that mean? well in an industry in which you need five years experience to pick your nose and then make the tea (in that order) not alot, but im hoping some crazy fool gives me a job soon!!!! Fingers crossed!

Chris.

Sunny day in Aberystwyth.............no really!

Todays been truely lovely; i've truely enjoyed it! The only bad thing was that Cardiff City lost in the play-off final! Being in the pub with friends was good though so that made up for it! I was planning to revise though I did an hourish but it never really happened! I will do some tomorrow........honest! Got my next exam on tuesday then wednesday with the final one on Saturday, I honestly cant wait for it all to be over! I'm not wishing my life away though, ill try to enjoy my revision............grrrrr; maybe not!

Just a short one, I hope tomorrow will be as great as today was!

Chris (the russian postman (see my ooold myspace blog))!

Life is changing alot now I see the end...........of education!

Hey all,

Well its been a while huh? Hope you didnt miss me too much now......ok please stop crying, no really! I was just thinking how much i've changed over the last three years and to be honest I think all of these changes are for the good, even if other people might not always apprechiate it! The first part of this change would be that I think i'm much more driven then before. Even a year ago I wouldnt have been too fussed about where I was going where ive been or who i'm with or investing my time and energy in. Now I do, I mean this could be refined so that I spend all my time working towards my goals; which in a way I guess it is, but you know only if winning on FIFA is a big goal, I suppose its more of a GOOOOOOOOOAL EAT THAT! I think i'm at a stage in my life though where if I think something could be good for me, but is incredibly negative both financially and on my soul im willing to drop it even if it hurts others. If it hurts my soul surely its bad to go along with it to protect others right?
I'm also alot more driven and determined to get all the material things I want in life! Richness in terms of monies and property and furniture is now a top goal in m life, I want a nice pad with alot of nice furniture so I can vask in my up-coming glory! I also am aiming to get a job I can least half enjoy. Although I concede that at the moment, I may have to settle with working at a certain supermarket on checkouts fr a while *shudder*!
Looking back that gap year may have been a good idea, but to be honest if i'd gone I do doubt if i'd have ever come back, I mean a life without exams and like rubbish lectures must be bliss! Also if I get a job I only have to be there for a relatively short time before moving on, with say education its a matter of years; normally a minimum of two!
So now at the height of the peak (but the bottom of the mountain) I look ahead and see glory, a fun and more importantly a challenging life!

Man this is going to be good, and I cant wait, roll on my last exams then im going climbing!

Chris (AKA The Russian Postman).

Its been a long time since I did one of these.....

Hey,

Ive been away from this for too long! I love writing about what wacky things i've been up to! So where to start...........I errrm played football today? Ok so I havent done as much as I first made out! I've applied for a buddle of jobs, and so far not got anything, but got offered some immediate tempory work, which I had to decline. 20K of debt for nothing would be quite damaging and my family would probably disown me for being such a fool! I'm going paint balling tomorrow that should be fun. I've heard it hurts quite a bit mind, but hey! In all likeness (ok its garentueed but not one likes a boaster) ive been through worse pain. Readers imagine your worse pain then times it by two the likliness is ive experienced that pain with various operations, injuries etc!
That was a good little excercise for you lot wasnt it; I might create some more one day, when you know im pretty bored! Tomorrow im demostrating my dissertation software, im bricking it to be honest, I mean explain what I did? I did it like 3 months ago! I dont remember, I just hope they havent read what ive written yet! Oh man ive gotta sleep tonight! Karates........still going? I'm still social sec, I still dont do much, I want to grade, ill go tomorrow; after my Sensei complimented my session for like the first time ever! How did I not mention this earlier? I was so moved I almost cried! I really want to give it my all, prove myself and make him proud! I'm gonna keep on fighting its built into me! I might also be visitng the NIA in a few weeks for a Karate National (UK) comp! I cant wait fo that especially since I saw UFC 89 there! Itll be like following the foot steps of my heroes if I go! Man I cant wait ive got loads to look foward to! oooooow and a BBQ social *drools*!

Did I go crazy when I was away? Away?..............

Chris.

New Term, new start?

Hey!

Well im back after uni after a partly healthy Easter! I'm getting down that gym tomorrow! Good stuff! Since I got back ive done some work on the dissertation, thats in for Wednesday so not long now! Ive made a mistake however, I stupidly thought it would be good to focus on my work by not bringing any enterntainment back with me! what a mistake im pretty bored! but work just seems more boring! Not really much to say right now, im sure when everyones back and live and kicking ill have more to say! just I havent written one of these blog things in a long time so thought it would be nice to update you............on not much at all really!

Chris.

its time.......

A few seconds ago I was just relaxing, thinking about what I really want, no what I REALLY want. Suddenly my eyes started to fill with tears, as I realised I REALLY want to get healthy. I REALLY want to get a degree and good job! I REALLY want many great friends and I REALLY want to get up and have as many people in my life as I choose (the number im not too sure of yet)! I REALLY want to move out.........now occasionally I know I go off track especially with the diets so i'm not going to be too strict on myself, just when i'm unfocused on one of my goals, ill change to another or ill adjust the target to make it just that bit easier to jump through......good porcilin doggie! Now I feel obscenely happy again! I'm going to write down all my goals and read them everyday along with a bit of the good book! Thats right I like to think a bit of religion can help me too! Now I know I kinda am I devout athiest, but this book really can have quite a hold on you, give it a go.....when I started reading it was just because I was bored......but its good stuff God is good. As to whats been going on in my life, ive got a load of work on right now and had a bit of a data lose problem over the weekend, which led to mountains of stress, im back on track now! This leads me to the next section of this post......short term goals. These are my things to do in the day, they help me stay focused on the long term and I reccomend them to anyone and everyone.....its simple just right down achievable parts of projects or whole projects that you aim to do in the day....if you dont make it at least you had a go and you can do some more tomorrow (or take a rest as a reward; always keep those deadline dates in mind though, I dont want you loosing your degree or job and ending up in a moutain of debt!

So come on Fernando, lets go dance (to our goals)!

Chri.

Another rolling blog

A rolling blog, that is I write it throughout the day as new things come to mind and yeah, unless I get bored we get a blog by the end of it. I came up with the idea myself I think! Lets begin, I still have a terrible cold, its not like im in bed dead or anything but its just pretty constant blowing the nose and not feeling 100% I wish it would go now! Im off to buy some fruit later because its meant to help however saying that this is like the third week in a row I have had a cold (it maybe a seperate one) and fruit doesnt do much!
Ive also come to the conclusion that music has a very strong influence over my mind, hopefully meditatiion will help eliminate this some what; but at the moment I listen to a happy song, im happy.....I listen to a sad one or depressing, angry etc one and yeah same effect the problem being I own a lot more angry music then happy, good for fighting, bad for life preservation!
In other news this weekend was pretty awesome, a little expensive but awesome non the less. I think living on ten pounds on a night out maybe required for a while just while I go through a mini economic recovery! I drank too much mind and now a friend seems a little off with me, I might be imagining it, but as I wont see him until thursday no worries right!? errm yeah, oh and I dislike arrogant people, I expressed this to him (about another person who will remain nameless) and yeah he seemed off about that! Now I dont judge when I tells me he just likes other people so why do the same with me!? This 'other person' is a prick anyway I literally dream about breaking his face.......arrrrgh! The reasoning for this is because when hes about its like i'm on trial or something and I have to live up to his standards or im shit; I want him to grow up, your not better then me and in a world outside of the dojo where I could legally kick your face in we'd all see that; until then I guess ill have to put up with you, fucker.
Im currently trying to download a perl module for my dissertation, its very complex; I really dont know whats going on! If I get this even working today ill be happy! I dont know why it cant just be simple, you know do that, do this wamo its done! Nope its gonna take a day, ooow.
I'm also trying a new diet where I pretty much cut out carbs, add excercise and I should loose some weight, I cant wait I love dieting lol just not when they collapse! Just been to play pool and I lost but it was fun!

Better do some work, thats your lot for now!

Chris.

Randy Couture- What a legend!

He really is! I mean hes what 46!? Man hes brilliant still! Crikey, if I can even throw a good punch at that age ill be doing well, let alone win a fight in a sport which is considered by most who know the toughest sport in the world by far! I dream of such success in whatever I end up doing and therefore thats exactly what i'm aiming for!
In other news, today was the day I decided to walk to Borth! I set off on my travels at about 11am, this is after all the dream I had since first year! Finally I was doing it! I walked down the hill and all was good, then walked up the massive hill, it was a very sunny day at this point so I was kind of sweating and thinking it cant be too long from here on........how wrong can one person be? Very!......... Anyway I set off over the hill followed the signs for the right direction and eventually came across Cardigan Bay, which was a private Caravan park pretty much! No signs; so I thought to myself hmmm ill just follow this road around the site and continue on my jolly way! Again what a mistake! Walking round took at least two hours, I ended up on the normal roads with judging drivers going past me staring me down like yeaterdays shit. However I eventually reached my destination and immediately realised my dream of a cool, busy active town was in fact simply put just a lie! It was like a dying place, with pretty much one open shop....the spar! So i wondered in got my lunch which as I said cheers instead of thankyou the staff thought they had the liberty to mock me as I left! Ass holes, I say cheers alot got a problem with it? Say it to my face fuckers! Anyway I got my food and walked a bit further, noticed their was really nothing here and then thought well lets go home then! Next train was two hours away so I aimlessly walked around,........the station was run by volunteers I think that pretty much sums up the town, I dont have a problem with it, i mean im sure in its day and maybe in season its a cool place to hang, but right then it sucked! Eventually I left, then I came back here! Then walked back home, and yeah I was shattered.....I sleep later and now I was reading to go! So now here I am, on the dawn of a brand new day!

I sense work on the diss and well lectures!

I cant wait, this ride is pretty cool!

Chris.

Multi-tasking.....its a bit good isnt it?

Hay,

Today your in for a right old treat! thats right im kind of doing this blog live! I'm writing it as i'm on facebook and also watching a TV program online (well listening) and also working on the dissertation! Some people may call this irresponsible.....I call it a technological advantage and since I do a degree in IT I can get away with it right? I'm currently watching (yes right now) The Virtual Revolution! Its quite good, it seems to be more of a history at the moment; but a few interesting things have come up, for example the self governing nature, the emergence of huge companies and why they occured. I'd reccomend it, if like me you enjoy technology! Its just finished so maybe I should up-date the whole blog? Nah! im rollling with this one people! Currently i'm also not typing a dissertation report into Content Management Systems. I think im going to conclude that Joomla is rather good and leave it at that. For my justifications read my dissertation! Its currently a work in progress, but im aiming at, as you know if your a long term reader a 2.1 overall for it, so I have to work on it like all day like I am now; with breaks like this one or id most likely go insane! I've just done a bit more work now and its really starting to wear me down, but ive got to do this, im going to miss Karate, I dont have time, whilst Karate is very important to me, im not going to ever sacrifice the last three years for it! Ive just finished the report I was doing so now I can relax kind of, I still need to start constructing the forum. Its all fun here! More to come later probably!

Chris.

Karate Socials!

Well, they are starting to become a bit old now to be honest! I enjoy them still but it takes more effort; I guess im in charge now so its more pressure and responsibility! I'm currently very, very tired so I think ill sleep soon, all day thats all ive been able to think about! Played football earlier and was so physically drained I could barely run! Glad I didnt go to the gym I may have died or something! Eight more weeks of University to go this term! Ive got a lot of work I want to do by the end of next week, I need to, to keep my dissertation on track. Mainly PERL and that but ill get it all done, itll all be ok in the end folks! Havent really got much news other then I payed my bill for my re-sit today so I have got the joys of another exam in the summer! Oh and the diets going well since I re-started it again! Havent really got much to say. Looking foward to work kicking off properly because i'm pretty bored without work; I like my work, so I guess maybe I should do some tomorrow or like now!

Im off, ill post again soon!

Chris.

Pre-Karate enthusiasm and re-targeting targets!

So ive been spiraling off track over and over for like the past few weeks. I guess its that religous event you people call Christmas. I call it Turkey and hmmmm cider! :-D Now that was like a month ago mind, but the whole scoffy lets eat for the sake of eating habit is a lot harder to kick! Therefore my latest crazy plan (yes this is the third) is to cut chocolate eating down to two days and have gym two days; which with my Karate will still give me around an hour a day excercie (Monday and Thursday and Monday and Friday) and keep all the rest the same (salads, weigh-ins, alcohol etc). Yes I make a lot of plans and when I say a lot I mean A LOT! But you know I just need to settle down into a nice routine like kind of was 3 days ago before I started binging again, I blame boredom! I need to write more blogs thats it! No I need to sort the past out......no I need to focus back on my goals and achieve them! thats right weight down to Thirteen stone by the end of the year; thats 82 and a half kilograms, im currently walking around at; wait a few seconds..... 98.3 full of food and i'm wearing trainers so 16.3kg (the difference between 98.3 and 82 apparently) divided by eight equals 2.03kgs a week! come on I can do that! feck im starting right now! fuck the excuses, fuck my enemies, fuck my doubters, yeah! This may sound very angry its more of a war cry of SPAAAARTA or something! To rally the troops of my mind! Oh and in other news im doing the dissertation it sucks, but im going places slowly and im guessing itll all form up in the end! No problems with any girls at the moment or any other minor problems.

See you tomorrow!

I can do this! COME ON!!!!!!!

Chris.

First blog in AGES!

Hello all!

Firstly apologies for my lack of blogs recently; ive been pretty much plugged down with work and exams and sleep! So what been going on in my life!? Well not a lot im feeling pretty darn good at the moment, you see ive learnt from the past that its best to ignore it so thats exactly what ive been doing. Well until I put on 1.4kg then I thought damn the past hahaha! But I went to the gym and then im back down to like 93kg. Im guessing it was mostly water I lost, but loose that and im guessing I must have burnt some calories. On a regular basis means less fat right? I not a nutrisionist but think thats how it works! Today I also started to watch my next kata and already my confidence in it has increased Heian Yondan is my next one and just from watching it today I think ive learnt the basic pattern. With a bit of practical work im pretty sure I should nail this. A lot of work yet mind! Been doing a lot of work today on the dissertation and got a meeting on that tomorrow with my tutor hopefully she'll tell me a few pointers to help me sale to that two, one my ultimate goal!

Bring it on! I'll try and do my next one on Friday ; all about socials and that!

Chris.

Revision of targets- how to actually achieve them!

So today im going to start forming plans to get down to my targets and grab them with both hands and achieve them if not out do them! Please readers cast your minds back to like two posts ago.....

'Aim one: 13 and a half stone by the end of the year (189 pounds and 85.7289579kg thanks google)!

Aim two: Build more muscle- ok I know this isnt one I can neccessarily know when ive hit!

Aim three: Move out by xmas 2010

Aim four: Have a job by November 2010

Aim five: (and the biggie) Cut drink out to two days a week (thursday and saturday so i can be social)

Aim six: A salad a day I mean proper beefy nice salad (that should be easy I love salad)!

Aim seven: Cut out all 'junk food' apart from Sunday nights so I dont go on binges like used to!'

There you go! Now how to achieve these things its all pretty obvious I think! I say that i'm sure ill turn it all into some complex task! :-D

Aim One: I currently weigh 95Kg or about 15 stone! So Gym three times a week with Karate should help me loose a lot of it obviously this will need to be going along with other aims for example eat a salad a day (rather then say loads of carbs)

Aim two: Take more protein shake, do stretches do weights; simple.

Aim three: Move out- again related to other things for example getting a degree, getting a job also the housing/letting market at the time. The only thingI can really influence is working hard on that degree with the aim of getting a 2.1 over all

Aim four: Improve/re-write CV, start researching what I would like to do in the future and make initial contact with companies.

Aim five: Easy to achieve with a bit of determination. Whenever I feel like drinking I will put away say five pounds into a pot and then when I need the money it will be there!

Aim six: Eat salad rather then more carbs so I loose weight quicker and therefore feel healthier/better about myself faster!

Aim seven: To achieve this I will need to get less drunk so I dont think 'hay 3 burgers seems like a good idea!' 'Yum a family size' etc. I'm guessing when other targets begin to show results this one will become easier to acheive because wont want to damage other targets with over eating that is my weight, my muscle etc.

Theres the plans! lets go get them!

Chris.

First blog of 2010

Happy 2010 people! I guess we arent in the naughties now so what is it? The tennies? Sounds good ill roll with that!

Ok important things first; this girl. Ive had enough of her in my head so ive decided this will be my last mention of her on this; its fecking bad ive screwed it up and at the end of the day if she cant see im the most awesome man shell ever meet its her lose! yeah she was nice but at the end of the day so is like everyone I know and most of them are awesome enough to know im great too and therefore want to be a part of my life so we can get more awesome together! At the end of the day if she doesnt want to roll with me, she doesnt have to but shes missing out! I mean im a smart guy who also likes to kick butt and have his butt kicked on a regular basis; how many guys do you know like that? I've come out of this whole thing a stronger, better person looking back I am now more focused through writing out my targets and I plan to achieve them! If she or another lovely girl wants to be a part of that great, if not its only a spare seat on this ride and im going fast baby!

Tomorrow I plan to reflect on all of my goals from my previous blog and yeah start making some steps to achieve them, in my fast car ;-)

Chris.