Meditation is good, I might do it a bit more!

So I began meditating again today but I used a new technique from ogtrance.wordpress.com. At first I just thought i'd see what he said he saw or something similar, I was a little bit sceptical I guess whilst knowing I too can go into trance from previous experience. I followed his instructions and soon in my meditation saw a brown bear, scratching at a tree on his hind legs. The blog encouraged me to research the animal I saw and I found below on the topic from various sources so I cant tell you where from unfortently:

'Role: To Awaken the Intuition~
Lesson: To Integrate the Parts into the Whole
Element: Earth
Wind: West, ~The Quest Within~
Medicine: To channel the Primordial Forces
Bear, Proudly Standing, full of grace and strength, you appear before us,
your face alight with the wisdom of one who has journeyed far
and witnessed much of man`s inhumanity to man.
Your gentle eyes weep for the pain you have borne witness to,
your soul afire with the knowledge that there is
so much more to the Walk around
the Sacred Hoop.
Your mind blazes with the desire to communicate to we,
the two-legged, that all life is infinitely precious,
and to be held sacred and revered.
There comes a gentle stirring from Within, like autumn leaves
blown by a restless wind, it harkens us back to a time,
when All walked as One.
When the force of Great Mystery moved across the face
of the waters in the veil of silver moonlight,
and rode freely upon the Seven Winds.
Wise Sister, who reminds us that Destiny`s Beginning and End,
resides not Without . . . but Within
I thank you for your Selfless Love, and pray
we will all hear your call to Awaken
to the glowing embers of
the Soul`s Memory.
The strength of Bear medicine is the power of introspection. The bear represent the west side of the Medicine Wheel. The West is the place of intuition, transformation, inner-knowing, shamanic journeying, dreams and visions. Bear teaches you to go within to solve problems and promote healing. Seek knowledge and wisdom through meditation and dreams. Go within your Winter Cave (subconscious mind) for renewal and the resources necessary for survival and healing. If you have Bear medicine, remember to slow down in Winter. Keep a slower pace during this season so you can contemplate the past year and prepare for the year to come. Study herbs and explore quiet places in Nature for balance and healing. Rest, but try not to hibernate all year long. Spring will provide you with new ideas and opportunities. Plan and prepare for next year, but don’t forget to live fully in the moment in the present moment.
personal power that she's learning to own
In some traditions bear is the spirit keeper of the West. The place of maturity and good harvest. The gifts that bear offers to those with this totem are strength, introspection and knowledge.
Unlike other animals who are active during a specific time of day, the bear is active both day and night. This symbolizes its connection with solar energy, that of strength and power, and lunar energy, that of intuition. It enhances and teaches those with this totem how to develop both within themselves.
Bear can sometimes be too quick to anger and too sure of it own power. While they have little to fear they can forget caution, which is an important trait to have. If bear is your totem be careful that you don't throw your caution to the wind. Being unaware of your limits in certain settings can be disastrous.
The bear holds the teachings of introspection. When it shows up in your life pay attention to how you think, act and interact. Use discernment in all that you do and discriminate with care. Bear teaches you how to make choices from a position of power'.

From this i've made the following observations about myself and my opinions on the world, my environment etc. Now don't get me wrong i'm very new to this however I think that some of it applies and although parts dont further study in this area (as i'll be meditating anyway) can only be a good thing!

1. I have been through a lot but am still here, much like the bear is described above.

2. I am a very inward person, I will often think lots, although sometimes I go head first into things or loose control of a situation which results in negative events.

3. I dislike the winter greatly, which is what I have intpretated from the above. I often go in doing the samethings I did during the summer and this results in me feeling very down with myself.

4. I am very energetic both day and night, which is similar to the bear, but often take naps because i'm too active.

5. I often get angry too fast, or make judgements or think others are judging me.

6. I often dont know my own limits or power e.g. hitting people too hard, getting drunk, taking things too far too fast. I need to control this more.

So I think I need to meditate in this way more so I learn more about 'bear' or my inner spirit however this is represented to me and then research or ask for help about the results. I'll do this tomorrow I think, and i'm looking very much foward to it!

Chris.